Thursday, 31 December 2009

Goodnight, beautiful

I've been away, on a different planet, in an unexpected and unwanted world. My Mum, my beautiful Mum, died on the 21st December. Leaving me and my 2 brothers in shock, but together, and with the rest of our loving family we are dealing with the loss of such a great woman.

My Mum was a writer, though never published. When I told her I wanted to be a writer, she took me to the library where she asked the librarian for a list of all the publishing houses in the UK so I could send them my book when it was ready. I was 8.

She was so supportive and thrilled with every bit of writing news I told her.

She wrote poetry. She wrote funny stories for me and my brothers when we were little. And when I couldn't sleep, she said, "Put your arms around yourself and tell yourself a story. You can go anywhere you want to go, be anyone you want to be."

I still can't believe I'll never see her again. She should be there, on the end of the phone, in her flat, telling me about the chinese dragon she could see in the trees.

Goodnight, beautiful x

24 comments:

~Tessa~Scoffs said...

So, so sorry for your loss. Gather up her stories and keep them forever.

katiemccullough said...

Sorry to hear about this loss Teresa, rest assured she leaves you eager to carry on and will always be there when you're published over and over again. Much love and reliving memories.

Kx.

Rachel Fenton said...

I'm truly truly sorry for your loss. There are no words. I have no idea what you must be going through. I'm really glad I found your writiing in 2009. I wish you well getting through this.

x

(Don't put this on the blog)

Tania Hershman said...

I am so so sorry, Teresa. She sounds like an amazing mother, she must have been so proud of you. So sorry for your loss. xxx

Lynne Hackles said...

So sorry Teresa. My Mom died back in May. Try to hold on to all the wonderful memories you have.

Nik Perring said...

Oh Teresa, I'm really, really sorry to read this. Hugs.

Nik X

Sophie Playle said...

I'm so sorry, Teresa. She sounded like a wonderful mum.

Miles said...

It's not fair that she's gone, but she'll always be there with you as an inspiration and a guiding light.

Love you lots xxx

Jessica said...

I'm really sorry for your loss. Your Mum sounded like a wonderful and encouraging woman.

Teresa Stenson said...

Thanks everyone xx

Tracy Wright said...

I miss her already too, can't believe i'll never get a hug from her again in the middle of co-op. I can't even begin to imagine how you are feeling. She will be sorely missed. xxxxx

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Anne Brooke said...

I'm so very sorry about this, Teresa - nothing useful to say, but I'm thinking of you and the family loads.

Axxxxxxxxxxx

Teresa Stenson said...

Thank you, Anne x

See you Wednesday, Trace xx glad you're coming xx

happy kimono said...

Hello Treacle

I hope you're ok. I'm so sorry about your Mum. Thinking of you lots at this very difficult time. Keep writing and smiling when you can, part of her will always be with you.

x x x

claires inner world said...

Very sorry to hear this news. My thoughts are with you. Claire.

Clowncar said...

I'm so sorry. That's very sweet, for her to take you to the library to look up publishing houses.

What a nice memory for you to treasure.

emily josephine mcphillips said...

teresa, your post made me feel sad, but it's also lovely to read how your mum was such an important part of your life, especially in being so encouraging of you and your writing - it's nice that you have that extention of her influence, with you, always. that's such a beautiful thing. my thoughts and hope are with you. x

Teresa Stenson said...

Thank you, Elle. I'll be seeing you soon x

Thanks Claire, Clowncar and Emily x

karjon said...

It just dawned on me to look here...

She sounds like a brilliant mum, and aye, she should be here for you, but you made her so proud when she was, so always remember that.

Another wee hug flying your way,

K.
x

Jenni Doherty aka IrishPenJen said...

Dear Teresa, my thoughts, strength & love to you, your two brothers and all your family. Hugging you hard & remembering all those wonderful mothers and daughters we all know and cherish and that soul & spirit that will always live on - Those branches trees will never leave you. They're there to be watered & bloom forever...

Ina grĂ¡,

Jenni
x

Teresa Stenson said...

Thanks so much, Karen and Jen xx

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Claire said...

I love you x (I don't know how many times I can tell you that before it starts to make us both uncomfortable)