Thursday, 12 October 2017

CONVERSATION WITH A BOY I LIKE: Quotes From My Teenage Diaries Part 17




July 1994. I'm 13.



Well, I mean *where* do you go from there?


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NOTE TO SELF: Quotes From My Teenage Diaries Part 16


Soz, luv.

But technically you're not 'gone'.


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Wednesday, 30 August 2017

MORE EXTRACTS FROM A TERRIBLE LOVE STORY: Quotes From My Teenage Diaries Part 15

Remember the story of Carl and ME, which I wrote in my special 'Love and Boys' diary when I was 13 and desperate for a boyfriend?  
Well the scene I shared last time with my pleading and yelling eyes / irises / retinas etc did, of course, result in a kiss and that's included below.
SPOILER: It's all a bit vom-inducing.



EXTRACTS FROM A TERRIBLE LOVE STORY by Teresa Stenson age 13

“I’m Carl, good to meet you.”
By now we were talking through the fence and we were quite close.
“Yeah, good to meet you too, Carl. Are you staying for long?” I asked, hoping he would say ‘Forever’.

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His eyes almost pleaded when he looked at mine. Pleaded for my company, my soul even. The next few months were going to be the best.

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We chatted all the way to the beach, about America, our families and ourselves. He was an only child, raised in Florida in a large house. 

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We settled down and began to eat a sandwich.
“So, how do you like England so far, Carl?”
“Well, I like it! I’ve been here for two days now and already I met a friend.”
“Oh who’s that?” I teased, knowing it was me.
“Well, it’s you of course, Teresa.”
Wow, he was my friend - hopefully something more very soon. A silence seemed to sweep over us for a few minutes while I thought about him being more than a friend.

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His eyes looked deep into mine, past the iris, the nerves and the retina, deep, deep into my soul. He knew what I was thinking. 
He sat up and looked in front. 
I sat up too. 
He looked at me once again. This time with an uncertainty. Shall I kiss her? That was his question in his mind. 
Yes, do, please! I yelled at him from my eyes.
We got closer as our eyes closed and as our lips met, so gently that I hardly felt it. He kissed me again, this time with more meaning, more passion. I put my hand on the back of his neck and pulled his head closer to mine, now kissing so hard it almost hurt. Then he pulled away. His eyes showed warmth but a touch of uncertainty once again.
“Teresa, did you want that as much as I did?” he asked.
“Yes, Carl, yes I did.”

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He led me to the coconut shack and had a go at winning me a teddy. He missed his first two goes but on his third he succeeded. The man handed him a teddy and Carl gave it to me. We walked away and he said, “That gift is my heart and I just gave it to you. Keep it close to yours, treat it with respect and never break it.” 

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What time do you have to be home?”
“5.30 for my tea, what about you?”
“6.”

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The End.

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Thursday, 10 August 2017

A WHIRLWIND ROMANCE (and one of my first short stories): Quotes From My Teenage Diaries Part 14

July 1994. 
I'm 13 years old and desperate for a boyfriend. I don't have one in real life so I do what any self respecting aspirational writer would do and I create one. 
Sort of like in the film Weird Science, but Carl (yes, I called him Carl) only existed in my mind and the pages of my diary. 


The story so far: Carl is American, and is spending the summer in the UK with his relatives who are also my next door neighbours (handy). One afternoon I spot him sunbathing in their back garden and am immediately drawn in by his hair: brown, wavy, and cut in curtains. 
I must speak to him! I take a ball outside with the intention of chucking it over the fence to get his attention. But I don't have to. Carl sees me and we start chatting. This is the beginning of what can only be described as a WHIRLWIND romance. I mean, it gets INTENSE. In that very same afternoon we go to the beach (it's set in Doncaster), have a picnic, go for a swim and go to an amusement park (also in Doncaster). Somewhere between the swim and the amusement park, this happens. 


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"His eyes looked deep into mine, past the iris, the nerves and the retina, deep, deep into my soul. He knew what I was thinking. 


He sat up and looked in front. 
I sat up too. 
He looked at me once again. This time with an uncertainty. Shall I kiss her? That was his question in his mind. 
Yes, do, please! I yelled at him from my eyes." 





To be continued...

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Thursday, 27 July 2017

GET REAL: Quotes From My Teenage Diaries Part 14


30th March 1994. 

I'm 23 days away from my 13th birthday and it's time to GET REAL.




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Thursday, 13 July 2017

Neighbours: Quotes From My Teenage Diaries Part 13

BUT. 
There was another book. And I also loved this book when I was 8, 9, 10... 




If you were at school in the late 80s to early 90s then YOU KNOW how popular Neighbours was and YOU KNOW what a treasure this book would have been to me. The amazing thing about it (apart from the subject matter, the cover stars, the colour photos) was that it was sent to me by my Aunt and Uncle in Australia. This wasn't some UK sourced unofficial Christmas annual from Woolworths - oh no! This was a potent, real, gen-you-eye-n artefact from the other side of the world and I absolutely adored it.







However. This book has a chequered past. When I was 9 or 10, it went missing. I searched high and low, couldn't find it anywhere. I was so upset. It literally dispappeared from my bedroom - there one day, not there the next. I hadn't misplaced it. I knew I hadn't misplaced it. There were a handful of friends who'd been in my bedroom the day it disappeared, and I knew one of them must have taken it. I just didn't know which one. I asked each of them, all denied it. My mum even went to speak to the other mums, just in case one of the girls had 'accidentally' picked it up. Allegedly, none of them had. 

A year or so passed. I was certain I'd never see the book again. And then... this is a little hazy - but what I recall is one of my friends told me she'd spotted it at another girl's house. Mum went to investigate. I was so nervous and excited while I waited for her to return. And when she did - she returned with the book. JOY, total joy. Best reunion evah. 








It had indeed been found in this girl's bedroom. She'd bare-faced lied to my bereft face when I'd asked her about it! But, well, she must have really wanted it and I can't really blame her for that - it was the most special and important book since ... Trev and Simon's Stupid Book.


Still get chills when I remember Scott and Charlene's wedding day. Mullets a-go-go. 

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Quotes From My Teenage Diaries is an ongoing project as I re-read and reflect 
on the diaries I kept from the age of 11 to 16. 

You can read Part 1: BEST FRIENDS here
Part 2: CONGRATULATIONS here

Part 3: MY FIRST BOYFRIEND here,
Part 4: MY SOUL AMBITION here,
Part 5: MEATLOAF here,
Part 6: MARK OWEN here
Part 7: A KITTEN! here
PART 8: PHILLIP SCHOFIELD here
PART 9: I HAVE A FEW PLANS here
PART 10: HEATWAVE, here
PART 11: CHRISTIANITY, here
PART 12: TREV AND SIMON, here

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Thursday, 6 July 2017

Trev and Simon's Stupid Book: Quotes From My Teenage Diaries Part 12

It's 1990, I'm nine years old and this is my favourite book. 



It is the funniest thing I have ever read. I take it to school and show it to everyone. At home I force my older brothers to read it, pushing the pages into their faces and saying, "Look! Look! Look how funny this is, aren't you impressed by it and therefore impressed by me, your little sister who you generally ignore???" Well - not saying that - but meaning that. 








Along with the diaries of Adrian Mole and the TV comedy of The Mary Whitehouse Experience, I have to say I feel like Trev and Simon's Stupid Book shaped me in some way - it certainly shaped my humour, and the way I use humour to connect with people.



The Kylie Minogue gag was probably my *favourite* favourite (I thought it was soooo funny and also clever), but I also loved Little Timmy and his balloon, the fake phone line ads, and I would have definitely ordered a My Little Plastic Fork if I could have done. 


I totally missed the Margaret Thatcher bashing - that's a nice little bonus as I read it now. 


So there you go - a true literary treat. 


(27 years on and technically I'm still pushing the pages of this book into people's faces.)


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Quotes From My Teenage Diaries is an ongoing project as I re-read and reflect 
on the diaries I kept from the age of 11 to 16. 

You can read Part 1: BEST FRIENDS here
Part 2: CONGRATULATIONS here

Part 3: MY FIRST BOYFRIEND here,
Part 4: MY SOUL AMBITION here,
Part 5: MEATLOAF here,
Part 6: MARK OWEN here
Part 7: A KITTEN! here
PART 8: PHILLIP SCHOFIELD here
PART 9: I HAVE A FEW PLANS here
PART 10: HEATWAVE, here
PART 11: CHRISTIANITY, here.

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Thursday, 29 June 2017

Christianity: Quotes From My Teenage Diaries Part 11

A slight deviation this week. 
These photos aren't from a diary, they're from what was originally my RE exercise book when I was 12 (in 1993). 


The book was only half-full, so sometime in 1997 I repurposed it, along with a few other books from school, and used the blank pages to draft out poems, stories and letters to my penpals. So in that way these books transitioned into something more personal and diary-esque. When we get to the 1997 years I promise I will share those excruciating poems, stories and letters. 



But for now we're back in 1993, in Room N23 of my secondary school where Mr Eckersley - who I remember being the strictest teacher in the school - has us sitting in alphabetical order (boys on one side of the room, girls on the other) while he dictates information about the world's religions. My handwriting is lovely and I write in great and fluid detail about the life of Jesus, John the Baptist, the feeding of the 5000, the parable of the good samaritan...



It's so good in fact that I'm sure we must have just written what Mr Eckersley told us to write, because there are hardly any awkward sentences, questions, or areas where I didn't quite get it and the teachings. 


Apart from this one, perhaps:



I find this a little puzzling - why would I list Kenny Rogers as a modern day example of someone with too much money???



I think there are one or two instances of rebellion in the drawings - though they are very, very mild. I think the 'Jesus Heals' drawing has a little of my humour in it, partly because the man is wearing a string vest and I used to think they were hilarious, and also because it's quite abrupt and that gives it an air of disbelief. 



It's quite clear I had fun with the 'The Resurrection of Jesus: In Pictures' but not enough to get caught, or told off - which was pretty much how I spent the rest of my education - just on the right side of cheeky.



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Quotes From My Teenage Diaries is an ongoing project as I re-read and reflect 
on the diaries I kept from the age of 11 to 16. 

You can read Part 1: BEST FRIENDS here
Part 2: CONGRATULATIONS here
Part 3: MY FIRST BOYFRIEND here,
Part 4: MY SOUL AMBITION here,
Part 5: MEATLOAF here,
Part 6: MARK OWEN here
Part 7: A KITTEN! here
PART 8: PHILLIP SCHOFIELD here
PART 9: I HAVE A FEW PLANS here
PART 10: HEATWAVE, here

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Wednesday, 21 June 2017

Heatwave, June 1995: Quotes From My Teenage Diaries Part 10

So apparently the last time we had a June heatwave quite like this one was in 1995. 
We're still in 1993 as far as my diary-sharing goes, but I thought I'd have a peek ahead to see if I mentioned it all. 

I did, and oof, I'm not happy. I go on to detail the fallings out amongst my friends (we are basically trying to out-do each other in terms of who feels things the most keenly: "Then she said SHE has had the hardest life out of all of us! Ha!") 



The most concerning aspect of all is that the fallings out, intense discussions, making friends again process was all so exhausting I didn't have time to fancy anyone on that dead hot day.




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Quotes From My Teenage Diaries is an ongoing project as I re-read and reflect 
on the diaries I kept from the age of 11 to 16. 

You can read Part 1: BEST FRIENDS here
Part 2: CONGRATULATIONS here
Part 3: MY FIRST BOYFRIEND here,
Part 4: MY SOUL AMBITION here,
Part 5: MEATLOAF here,
Part 6: MARK OWEN here
Part 7: A KITTEN! here
PART 8: PHILLIP SCHOFIELD here
PART 9: I HAVE A FEW PLANS here.

There's a Facebook page too and soon - I hope - there will be a podcast. 
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Thursday, 15 June 2017

Quotes From My Teenage Diary Part 9: I have a few plans


I'm 12 years old, it's November 1993 and I am very VERY excited about Christmas. The only way to channel this excitement is to write a really precise itinerary (almost 4 weeks in advance) about how I'll spend both Xmas Eve and Xmas Day. 






Actual evidence of a child "treating this house like a hotel"

Christmas Eve's plan is quite detailed and yet says nothing. I eat, go out, come back in again - and repeat - throughout the day. Just where was I going exactly?


And now for the itinerary of the main event: the plan for Christmas Day. I did several of these. Here are the first two.

Any parents out there: is 5.21 quite early for your kid to be getting you up?






Similar to the Christmas Eve schedule, there's a lot of detail but this time I list actual tangible things I will do, such as do my hair and "Sit on bed and say a prayer" (!!!) 
I'm also very delighted to see that I scheduled time in to "Get excited". 
A whole 4 minutes.


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Quotes From My Teenage Diaries is an ongoing project as I re-read and reflect 
on the diaries I kept from the age of 11 to 16. 

You can read Part 1: BEST FRIENDS here
Part 2: CONGRATULATIONS here
Part 3: MY FIRST BOYFRIEND here,
Part 4: MY SOUL AMBITION here,
Part 5: MEATLOAF here,
Part 6: MARK OWEN here
Part 7: A KITTEN! here
PART 8: PHILLIP SCHOFIELD here

There's a Facebook page too and soon - I hope - there will be a podcast. 
If you enjoyed this or can relate in any way - please do leave a comment or say hi on Facebook - it'd be lovely to hear from you.